Is this | Love?

          Love is such an amazing thing. It can make what seems impossible, possible. It knows no boundaries yet moves in very mysterious ways. It even makes people have butterflies in their stomach. It pushes people to do unbelievable things. Love is sacrifice, hope, and faith.
          Love differs from person to person. It can be seeing your crush even though he or she won't even look back. It can also be holding each other's hands as you stroll around the corner but for me, love is being in the same classroom with your crush. Yes, I am and still in love with my classmate not from here, but from my elementary school. She is actually one of my best friends. Her nickname is Ella and I even made a "ship" name for us even though it wasn't really ship because it was one sided, I guess. I called our ship "Donutella" which is the combination of Donut (my old nickname) and Ella. I actually got it from a to be released song by my idol, Lady Gaga, and it is actually "Donatella". I also love Lady Gaga but let us not talk about that. I remembered this one time where I posted my status as Donutella and to my shock, she was the one who commented first and I was really embarrassed. Good thing I was able to think of an excuse that it was just a song.
          Being in love is very complicated. It was some kind of torture that I really like to experience no matter how it hurts. It is like just seeing her is enough to make the whole day complete even though you don't get to talk that much. We like to hang out together with our other best friends but she usually talks to the others, not really me but it was okay because seeing her is enough for me. Time passed and we separated our ways because of high school but it was okay since I could still talk to her but I was saddened to see her being "shipped" with someone else. It really hurt me even though I don't have the right to be and I just thought to myself, seeing her happy is just enough even without me. By the way, I am not one of those creepy stalkers that visit someone's profile everyday. I just happened to see a photo of them together in my news feed. But now, I don't get to see some pictures of them together anymore so I think that's a good sign, well at least for me, I guess. I remember that I even made my first minimalist poster after her and I even sent it to her hoping that she will like it and I was so glad she did.
          For me, love is really about having this feeling whenever you see someone, be with someone, and even hear someone. A feeling that is very hard to explain yet you know it's there. Love is something that you just not see, smell, or hear but it is something that you feel within yourself.
          I love her mainly because of a source of inspiration. She makes me pursue my studies further so that I will be successful in the future or at least into someone that will make her say to her other friends "hey, this guy is my best friend". Every time I'm with others, I try to think that that someone is Ella because I try to think what course of movements will make Ella like me more or something like that.
          Ella is everything I could look for in a girl. She is kind, intelligent, witty, fun to hang out with, not those dramatic girls, beautiful, and she also has glasses and side bangs. I don't know why but glasses and side bands are a turn on for me. I'm so weird. As you can see, you can probably tell how I am still in love with her. Even if we grow up and we won't be together and we will have our own families, I will treasure every moment we have shared with each other since she will and will always be my first true love.

The one on the left is me (I wish) and the girl on the right is her. The photo on the right was the thing I was talking about earlier that I sent to her before. By the way, I didn't want to post an actual picture of her because I think that would be too creepy and it would violate her and I don't want to ask for her permission.